Currently I'm sitting in the parking lot of Blue Pearl hospital in Franklin while Roscoe is inside getting an ultrasound done.
As if the last two years of my life haven't been challenging enough, last Friday Roscoe started urinating blood. I've tried really hard to stop feeling sorry for myself but I'd be lying if I said I'm not spending a lot of time thinking about how we might not get our Yellowstone trip, or how I'm sick of loosing loved ones, or how his Dad should be here for us. Its hard. Its hard not to feel like your whole world is crumbling down around you when your kid gets sick like this. Im very scared.
In the midst of this happening though, I have to say I've felt motivated. Sure, some days I don't want to leave my bed, but currently the forward momentum of Roscoe Rescues is done almost entirely behind a computer screen.
I've been working really hard to get the website looking good. I really like working on it, but it is Hella time consuming. This is all new to me. I haven't spent this much time behind a computer since AIM. And technology has come a long way since then! I'm self teaching lots of programs and working online. Irs an intimidating project but the fear of Roscoes not making it into our prime as a business is putting steam in my engine and I just keep chugging along. I think I can I think I can I think I can.
Graphic design has become something I really enjoy. It makes sense, im a creative. I paint and draw and write (obviously) so this new form of art is exciting and helps keep me motivated as well.
I truly am thankful for Roscoe Rescues at a time like this. I will keep pushing forward. I will keep working. I will be grateful. I will change the face of rescue.